THIS BOOK EXCERPT CAN NOT BE REPRODUCED WITHOUT PERMISSION FROM THE PUBLISHER CHAPTER ONE  "I hate you! I hate you! Take your hands off of me and get away right now! I'm not going to let you do this to me again. No more, never again!" La Vonne Brown said in fear as Jonathan, her drug induced husband beat her while her small children watched with fear. "I told you not to call the cops, but you wouldn't listen. La Vonne, all I wanted you to do was love me as your husband. But all you ever did was complain and nag me about the things I wasn't doing. The only thing I did was have a good time with my friends. But now that you've called the cops, you're gonna pay!" Then he continued to beat her, socking her in the face and stomach with his fist while she cried with great agony. "Stop Daddy! Don't hit mommy! Please stop now before you hurt her like you did before." Jonathan Jr. said as his dad continued hitting his mother, who weighed a mere 105 pounds, next to his dad's giant 210 pound body. The powerful blows from his fist caused her face to bleed. "Get away from me you little bastard." Jonathan Sr. said as he pushed away his eight year old son. "You better take your black ass back to bed before I put my foot up in it!" Then he looked at La Vonne, who was a small-framed light skinned black woman. She was trying to wipe away the blood that dripped from her face while holding her stomach, which was cramping from the pain. The cramping was a result of not only the pain she endured from the beating, but from the fragile state her body was in while carrying their unborn twins in her womb. While bearing the massive pain, La Vonne noticed trickles of blood running down her leg. To her surprise, it was leaking from her vagina, where her babies were sheltered away from the world. Jonathan looked at the blood and became more enraged with what he saw and screamed; "We didn't need no more damn kids around here anyway! I hope the little bastards die!" Then he let out a sound of laughter that was pulled up from the bottom of his stomach, shook his head and continued to smile. He was feeling proud of what he had done. His large frame towered over La Vonne and her children. His size and dark complexion gave him a look of power and strength that frightened many who were in his presence. After hearing her father's harsh words, Stacy, their six year old daughter ran back to her bedroom while crying out loud. Jr. sat in silence. "Jonathan just leave him alone, you're scaring him." La Vonne warned, as he prepared to teach their son a lesson. "Don't you dare put your hands on him." Fear and rage were deeply embedded in her voice. "Just leave us alone. Go back with your friends! Just leave this house!" As she stood in pain holding her stomach, her thoughts focused on the police actually coming to her rescue, even though she knew that wasn't likely to happen. She knew that this time was different and that this time things were very wrong. However, the reality was always the same, the police only came in her neck of the woods if someone was bleeding to death or worse. Living in a low income neighborhood, that was predominately black, resulted in less than fair treatment, or respect, given by anyone with authority. As La Vonne stood there, Jr. saw the fear in his mother's eyes. He wanted to help. "Daddy just leave us alone! We didn't do anything to you." He fearfully said. Suddenly, Jonathan held up his hand and hit his son right in the face, making his lip bleed. Jr. fell to the beat-up wooden floor and began crying. He held his nose, trying to stop the blood from streaming down. Jonathan laughed out loud as he watched his son laying on the floor. "Get off that floor you little sissy. What's the matter, you can't take it like a man? Your ass been hanging around your damn momma for too long. She got you acting like a little bitch. That's all you are is a little bitch-ass momma's boy. Get your ass off that damn floor and stop crying like a little baby." TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENS NEXT, ORDER YOUR COPY TODAY! FIND OUT WHY SO MANY OTHERS CAN'T PUT THEIR BOOK DOWN AFTER PICKING IT UP! ORDERING DETAILS ON OUR ORDER PAGE.

CELEBRITY ENDORSEMENTS

"Leave it up to Toi L. Moore to keep it real on love, relationships, and accomplishments. She's a dynamic and delightful writer, as well as a hell of a woman!" VIVICA A. FOX / Actress "Toi, has clearly given to the world a beautiful and frightening example of what a Mother passes on to her daughter, love, patience and all forms of emotional coding. La Vonne Brown, the character, reminds us that life is not always fair, but thru divine intervention, there is always a way out of darkness, into the light. It is ok to say NO!" JAMES and DEBBIE INGRAM / Entertainer "I applaud Toi Moore for putting together a story that brings out an ugly truth that unfortunately does exists in some families. If it helps even one person cope and/or change their behavior for good....it can be very enlightening!" PATRICE RUSHEN / Entertainer "I grew up in a family that had domestic abuse. As a little kid, I have watched my mom and other relatives get hurt because of it. What the adults don't understand is that it is not only about them and whatever they are going through, it is about the children. They are watching and listening to everything that is going on and they are learning. Learning about how to treat women, men, even their parents. I think that if the parents thought about the kids, there would be less fighting and more loving in the household." TC CARSON / Actor / Living Singles Kyle Baker'